Ok... time to be real...lol...
Alright. I am thinking that with the way things were headed in my life, that things are defonatly beginning to look up for me. I mean, A few months ago I was pretty much depressed and pissed off at the world, and some how my luck decided to play a role in my life.
Thinking about it, just amazes me. It's like, everything happened to me all at once when things went wrong, my fiance' decided to lie to me, use me and shit and go back to his ex, I lost my job, I was not getting along with my parents at all, and I was depressed...
Now, I am graduating, moving to the big city, may be getting a really good job modeling ;) found a few of my old friends from when I used to live in Rochester a loonngg time ago... things are getting easier for me, considerably easier. But then That is probably going to change when i really enter the real world.
But not everything is better for me, me and my parents still dont get along, i still feel alone in most situations... things with my friends are going on... its quite a bit of stress actually...
I guess that I shouldnt let some things bother me a lot, my relationship with my parents will probably change after i move, it's changed for my sister because she had the same problem with my parents as she had when growing up. She moved out on graduation day and since then they have been getting along most of the time.
Well.... i guess thats all i've got today.. im going home after this period.. tomorrow is the first full day im having of school since thursday. lol. Seniors will all be back on from their senior trip... wish i coulda gone dammit... oh well.. im going to cali in 2008 ;) havin' me some fun!
Welll, later bloggers!
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Modeling? Oh my! That means you'll have to SMILE! OH MY GAWSH! Good luck though, I know what it's like to step out for the first time. Don't give up! Things don't always work out the way you plan, but I will assure you that they work out. I'm still alive, aren't I? I've taken some serious chances in my life, and many of them have paid off. It takes courage ;) As for the parents thing, it happens. I remember back when I was 17 me and my mom were constantly at ends. They tend to settle down when they realize that you can take care of yourself. You're too young to realize it yet, but dealing with you for 17 years has been a serious pain in the butt, dispite how much they love you. Give it a few years, and a few "friends", and you'll see what I mean. They get much happier once they realize you can succeed without them picking up your coat tails. |
