Lilac Fest and the rest of my weekend...

Lilac fest was for the most part... COLD! I nearly froze to death standing outside for 5 hours waiting for Teddy Geiger... who by the way showed up 20 minutes late! It was supposed to be warmer but it was like in the low 50s or something and the wind would not let up.

Teddy Geiger was really good though, idk if it was really worth standing in the cold for 5 hours for him but it was a good concert. He did a really good job. http://www.democratandchronicle.com/apps/pbcs.dll/section?category=multimedia Aside from Teddy Geiger I also saw the Hannah concert. I guess her band is from Tennessee, her father plays bass guitar, 16yr old brother on the electric and acoustic guitars, 13 year old brother on drums, Hannah, lead singer, is 17... They were REALLY good!

I got home at my house in Mt. Morris around 11pm and realized my purse was not with me, It's back in Rochester. FUCK! So my sister and brother-in-law have to bring it out tonight after work. And to add on to that problem, my mom spazed again... about Nate of course. He had come back to my house when I was gone to the city to apologize to my mom for squealing the tires the other night when he left... he did it out of respect and didnt want my mom to think he was an ass or anything, and after he apologized she told him that he could come back sometime when i was home, today perhaps... and acted all nice towards him and shit... then behind his back she says shit and gets angry that he even showed up. So she yelled at me about it and while she was screaming at me (literally screaming) she was saying shit like You dont even know him! You two arent right for eachother! He's too old for you! Your gonna go and get yourself pregnant! Yeah fucking right mom... She doesnt know him, she wont give him a chance. He's not too old... and at least i am not my sister, dating guys 20-30 years older than me... Nate is only 25, he's caring, smart, loyal... better than any other guy i've dated. I know more about him than my mom does, how dare she tell me that i dont even know him... then she brought up the mistakes i've made with Chris... she doesnt know that he forced me the first time to have sex with him... at the end of the argument she said, "You couldnt seem to close your legs for Chris, and I doubt you will for any other guy you meet!" She fucking things I'm a whore! I cant believe her!! I dont care if shes just fucking angry that I am with Nate... that was totally out of line. She shouldnt have said it... I looked at her... I was so angry... and I just said, Fuck you. and left. I  cant be living with my mom anymore. .. I cant do it... But I cant just leave.. im only 17 years old... Mom can go ahead and call the cops and get me back home... then i'd only be in more trouble... getting yelled at even worse than i am now... and I cant deal with it. I'm better off just isolating myself from her... Even though I cant seem to get away from her... Then she shit like "I just found out that he lives in his own house, If I find that you are at his house alone with him you are going to be in so much trouble. I had better not find out that you're going to his house without anyone else there... I will be watching you, I have eyes everywhere.. I will find out." It doesnt matter because any time I am at his house I am normally with another person other than him. He has a fucking roommate... not that he gives a damn about anything that goes on there... and besides we're over at his mom's house a lot when I am over there, and his mom only lives a few feet away... really!

life is bullshit... i am so sick of  being told how to live my life... sick of some of the people in it... sick of the situations i have been in, and have yet to go through. Sometimes I wish i'd just die, but what good would that do, it's just a way out that is irriversable... i have a lot to live for right now.

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