Im sorry

Today is a rather dreary day... the sun isnt shining, it looks like its about to rain, and already I got into an argument with my parents. It's only 9:54am and we're not getting along. They really piss me off sometimes. This morning I forgot my purse at home when I left to catch the bus, I was in a hurry and it totally slipped my mind. If I had been completely awake this morning (7:15am) then I probably would have had it sitting right in front of me... but it wasnt. So I left without it and called my parents at 8:00 and asked if one of them could bring it to me, its only 3 miles at most to the school, and they both said no they wont waste the gas on me. It had everything I use throughout the day in it. Pencil, chapstick, gum, calculator, cell phone, wallet, stuff I need or I will be absolutly miserable without it. Gum helps me concentrate, dunno how... I take notes throughout the day so i need my pencil (obviously), I have a thing with my lips drying out... wont let it happen - need my chapstick, cell phone i dont really use unless i need the time, wallet has my money in it for lunch... calculator i need cuz i suck at math. lol. So yea... im basically screwed without it. But thank god My dad isnt as much of an asshole as I thought he was. I borrowed a pencil from Des and 3rd period (beginning of this class... 9:37) I went to the attendance office and my purse was there! He brought it to me :D He may be a dick but he cant resist making me happy sometimes... well.. not even sometimes... once in a great while. But whatever.

Has anyone heard the Salvador version of the song Heaven? Ohhhh it is soooo much better than Los Lonely Boy's version. Salvador sounds so much more.... amazing :D More spanish kinda... prolly cause they are spanish but whatever.

Salvador is spanish for Savior... :o) I know some spanish!

Later bloggers!

Im Sorry

Regretfully I wite this,

A letter to you my parents.

These things I need to say

so please dont interrupt.

My whole life growing up,

you taught me to go after my dreams.

You told me to follow my heart,

and I did - It disappointed you.

I dont quite understand

why you told me the things you did,

If you later decided to deny me of my desires.

I know I'm not the daughter you wanted,

I am nothing compared to your only son,

I'm sorry I've disappointed you.

Mom I'm sorry I have fallen in love,

I'm sorry he's not the boy you keep telling me to date.

Dad I'm sorry that I am not into things like airplanes.

I realize that you two both share one certain thing,

love and protection over me.

I have grown up fast over the years,

Im not a child anymore.

It's time you let me make my own decisions,

I need a life that is my own.

I am graduating,

Years have passed so fast, I know.

But it's time for me to live my life,

To get out on my own.

Quit treating me like a child.

Im not one anymore.

I'm sorry I havent turned out the way you wanted me to.

I cant help it.

I'm sorry that what I want and what you two want are very different things.

Please realize that what I am doing makes me happy.

But you keep bringing me down in your over-protectiveness.

Please let me be me.

I cant help who I am.

I'm sorry