Hey Miss Murder!

I am curious, and yet I am confused. I want to see how my life will turn out in the end... ever wondered about how your life looks in the end? Will I have done everything I have wanted to do? Will I have led a good life? I know that I havent done the things that I have wanted up to now, I've been forced into things my whole life. Graduation is in less than 3 weeks. I will be in charge of my own life soon. Years have passed me by, and all I remember doing with my life is what my parents forced me to do. With the exception of youth group, I have done nothing for myself, but for my parents. And now that my life is going to a new turning point, I am excited, but I am also worried about the outcome of it all. I havent had a life till now... it's making me nervous. I know that it's normal to be excited and nervous about moving on... and I am so excited about getting out there in the world. I am really looking forward to going to England. It's a definite thing, it is going to happen. I'll be out of the country by next autumn, if not earlier. It's going to be so expensive... but it's expected.

I need to save for a laptop so that when I leave the country I can have something to write in this blog with and keep in touch with my friends and family through IM and Email since I wont be able to call very often. lol. oh i cant wait to go to England. My friend Matt is going to meet me at the airport when I arrive, he promised... I cant wait to see him... Matt has got the most amazing smile i have ever seen in the world! And probably has one of the best personalities i have ever seen as well... he is a real great guy...

okay, well i have a few things to get done... later bloggers!