today...

So I'm doing it today, I'm telling Ron how I feel... and... i feel absolutely terrible about it.  I don't want to hurt him, but Its pretty obvious that either way someone gets hurt. I was talking to my friend Mel last night about the whole thing, I told him pretty much all the thoughts going through my head about me and Ron, and he says that I am right for doing what I am going to be doing... Last night was definitely the mind making issue. Ron wouldn't even talk to me when I called him, he answered the phone and said "I'm busy." and I asked busy with what, and hes like "I'm playing video games with the guys."      .... I  only wanted a few minutes of his time to see how things were going, what he did during the day, say hi and thats it.... but i couldn't even get that. He insisted on going back to the video games. :(