So apparently Michael Oulton and Ashley Cassidy were in a car accident yesterday, Mike driving... nobody died thank god. Ashley broke her arm, thats about all that happened.. I just learned this this morning... so  that explains the ambulance and stuff Deserea.

Ugh I am so out of it today... I woke up late, like 7:03 or something like that, then I had to rush to get ready... The bus came at 7:13...

I took a benadryl this morning before I left for school... i am soo regreting it now... I have been out of it since the middle of 1st period. It's got me in that I dont care at the moment mood... Like I cant even speak right...*yyyaaaawwwwwnnnnnsssssss* I hate when it puts me like this... I nearly fell asleep last period. That woulda been fun... I have done it before. I fell asleep and everyone was laughing at me cuz it was my turn to read and i was just sitting there asleep.

Well i have to take my cpr test today after school... i dont wanna but i haveta so i can graduate in june. I forgot some of it so i need to look it up again...

eeehhhh l8er  bloggers..  i cant possibly write anymore else in the state im in...

I hate sitting in this class. I wont do anything, It's boring and I did this shit in Boces last year. They should have just let me drop and add a studyhall... dumbasses...

So im sitting here writing my blog, listening to Westlife... doing... nothing other than that. I have an essay to write this weekend... dont know how im supposed to do that... It's on Death Attitudes, and its for the movie, Walking Tall.

Im gonna have to do something with that this weekend or else... lol... no fun but oh well... Des.. sorry I signed out of chat like that, teacher came in... dont wanna get yelled at for having chat up on the computer... you kno the school policy.

Besides hes gonna have a "little chat" with me. fun.

Later Bloggers!

I really have to pee but there's somebody in the girls bathroom!! I can't go with people around, its wierd. And y'all are prolly thinking that I'm wierd for writing this but I could really care less... im frustrated! dammit. I didnt have time this morning to go before I left for school... the bus ride was more bumpy than any other day, i've had to sit through 2 boring and long lectures already... and now there's someone else in the bathroom.. I went in there and SHES JUST SITTING THERE! omfg... that pisses me off.. like get in and get out!

Ok Donna... breathe... *breathes in and out for a minute* I want to blow up the 1st floor bathroom... really... no not really.. but o well. Grrrrr......................................

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Everyone is back from the senior trip... I guess everyone had a lot of fun. Dammit. lol. Oh well. like I guess a few people got drunk over there for Cinco De Mayo lol. That would have been so fun! Dammit!!! I should have gone... But oh well, I am hopefully going this winter with my friend Eric for a few days... or a week not sure... then I am def. planning to go to California either next year or 2008... I have been wanting to go back for a while now just like to see where I was born and stuff.. like over in San Diego, wait no... i lived in San Diego... but I was born in El Centro. lol... whatever. But me and my other friend Eric wanna go and get drunk on the beach, weather or not that's actually legal i dunno... prolly not.

ohhhh... i am so tired... I kept waking up last night i dont know why... like maybe I was just too warm or something, i dont remember. I know that I woke up once and for some reason turned on my lamp and fell back asleep. That was when i woke up at 2:30am. I also woke up at 5am thinkin that it was 6, almost freaked out cuz I was so tired and I wanted more sleep... then I looked at the clock and was all, oh its only 5.. iight.

I am curious to know why i turned on my lamp and fell back asleep... lol... im wierd... but oh well.

Last night my parents were being complete assholes... like my dad and mom decided they were going to just boss me and my brother around, their like "Greg you need to clean out the litter boxes, Donna you do the dishes and Greg can dry them. your father and me are going down to the field for a little bit we'll probably be back up before you guys finish up." So we were all yeah right you guys, the only way we're doing that is if Dad lets us online before you go down so that when we finish before you even get down the hill we wont be bored. They said no, called us dumbasses and left. Eeeh.... I cant wait to move. and Greg's got it easy too... he's their favorite. The only son and shit...

Well... I heard from the ppl at the modeling agency, im on hold ;) So like i guess when they explained what that meant, it means like their asking ppl if they'd be interested in having me in one of their adds/commercials/being an extra in their movie/ect... but they did tell me that the picture that i gave them for the full body shot needed to be better... that not many ppl would be interested because the body shot wasnt very good. So I re-did that, hopefully i get a better thingy for that.

well thats all for now, later bloggers!

Alright. I am thinking that with the way things were headed in my life, that things are defonatly beginning to look up for me. I mean, A few months ago I was pretty much depressed and pissed off at the world, and some how my luck decided to play a role in my life.

Thinking about it, just amazes me. It's like, everything happened to me all at once when things went wrong, my fiance' decided to lie to me, use me and shit and go back to his ex, I lost my job, I was not getting along with my parents at all, and I was depressed...

Now, I am graduating, moving to the big city, may be getting a really good job modeling ;) found a few of my old friends from when I used to live in Rochester a loonngg time ago... things are getting easier for me, considerably easier. But then That is probably going to change when i really enter the real world.

But not everything is better for me, me and my parents still dont get along, i still feel alone in most situations... things with my friends are going on... its quite a bit of stress actually...

I guess that I shouldnt let some things bother me a lot, my relationship with my parents will probably change after i move, it's changed for my sister because she had the same problem with my parents as she had when growing up. She moved out on graduation day and since then they have been getting along most of the time.

Well.... i guess thats all i've got today.. im going home after this period.. tomorrow is the first full day im having of school since thursday. lol. Seniors will all be back on from their senior trip... wish i coulda gone dammit... oh well.. im going to cali in 2008 ;) havin' me some fun!

Welll, later bloggers!

Haha... well I opened my email this morning and I got my classification's :) I should go for the Lingerie / Swimwear Model thing... I've got a booking agent!!! :oD But I shouldnt get in ahead of myself... omg... Im so excited!!

Believe it or not, but I applied at a modeling agency, like you model in front of cars and look hott doing it... dont laugh. lol. So anyway, I inserted my pics and they said that I would hear back from them within 24hrs with the comments on them. I got the comments and they said "You have a nice fresh face look" soooo im guessing that's good?

Everyone is constantly telling me that I look hott or im really good looking, so I figured that If all thats true i'd see what Is in for me with Modeling...

Should I really go through with this????

My fucking cat just fucking clawed me in my fucking leg, goddamned fucking cat!

So far my weekend is going according to plan, long, boring and... as you can tell, painful. Anyone wanna cat? Mine is really pissing me off. Think of the cat this way, Free Chinese Food!!!

My sister is coming down today ... fun. I love her to death but she always wants to do stuff with me, and I hate saying no because it's like I dont wanna even be around her... but she gets pissed off or easily irritated. I cant stand that. I mean, I have only yelled at her once in my life, and that is when I was playing zuma, already being distracted by my cat and listening to music, then she was trying to talk to me and I missed my target area of balls and died... yelled and she got PISSED. I shoulda been more pissed cuz i lost the game. I'd been trying to  beat level 9 for like ever.. and there was always the one round that i couldnt get by, but thats over now, im on level 12 now i think.. either that or 11.

Remember how I found my old best friend from Rochester on myspace? Well... he finally wrote back!! :D He gave me his phone # and still lives where he did before I moved. Its like sooo kewl man! Im cited! :D :D :D I dunno when I should call him... im gonna be so nervous!

Oh well.... thats my post for the day.

Later Bloggers!

I found my old best friend on Myspace last night, I havent seen him since like 8 years ago, and he was like 10 then... i was around 9yrs old. He has grown so much, his looks have changed but not enough to where i didnt recognize him. He's still got the certain look to him. God I missed him when I moved. I remember there was a day we were walking back to school and I wanted to show him the shortcut to our street that I had been on once, and he was kinda, Nah we shouldnt do that... My parents will get upset if Im not home on time... but I convinced him and we went, got lost and turned around and walked back the normal route. He got grounded and I got yelled at... a lot. We had so much fun together... and then I moved and didnt see or get to talk to him anymore. I did call him once, a few years ago, and he'd gone through puberty!!! lol. His voice was so deep.. it was funny... but then after that my dad told me that i couldnt call him again. I dont know why. :(

Last night I didnt get much in the way of sleep. There was a huge bee in my room, big and black, and so I was like fuck this, and i went downstairs with my pillow and crashed on the couch. My back was killing me sooo much, and today its worse. I dont know whats wrong with it... but im in pain.

Ugh... TGIF man...

Later bloggers! Im'a try to post a few times this weekend so y'all dont miss me too much! 

Well, I am not going to be writing much till next tuesday, the senior trip is taking off tomorrow morning and coming back monday night, im not going, but im not coming to school for more than 2 periods. 1st & 2nd... so maybe I will be able to post an entry tomorrow and monday during first period, but for now I dont see it happening...

I so wanted to go on the senior trip too. It's to Florida... i think St. Petersburgh, the hotel is right on the beach and everything. Dez, you n i need to take our own special senior trip. lol.

Dammit... unfair...

Well, later bloggers...

Dunno whats up with my blog entery title... I guess it's the Helena song i'm listening to by My Chemical Romance...

I am tired... man... I took my graduation cap to Mr. Raymond today, and gave him a picture of the Jedi I wanted on it... so all looks good, im gettin a jedi on my cap. I was kinda reconsidering, but I want mine to be different than everyone else's cap and I wanted it to show.... .... a little of.... me i guess. So since I am wierd, I have the wierd Jedi put in there.

So.... yep.... today is mad warm out... Really nice acutally. Yesterday was too, my brother did pretty good in the track meet... he did a relay and was in long jump. Hes a good long jumper, and my old friend Nate came up to me and was like "Your brother needs to do disk... he threw an 80 no problem... he needs to do it" sooo im assuming an 80 is good... i mean nate did tell me that my brother could get better at it but he was doing pretty good for a first year...

Well thats all i've got today... later bloggers!

I hate teachers. They always have something to fucking say. Mr. Raymond told me at the beginning of the year that he would paint my graduation cap for me, well I got my grad gown and cap today, and so I went to see him a few seconds ago about painting my cap and he was all, well I want you to find a picture of the Jedi you want me to draw on your cap. I was like okay... and i asked him, Can you freehand it? and he got all on my case about it, he was like Donna why do you have to be so demanding when somebody says that they were going to do favor for you. I wasnt being demanding though, I was simply just asking dammit! God... I hate teachers nowadays.. Raymond is such a prick sometimes... grrrr.... I cant stand it....

I am sooo in pain right now!!! I sometimes dislike being a girl... really dislike it.. but thank god I only dislike it for a week out of a month.

I took 3 Ibuprofen tablets to help the pain go away... all I can say is that damn medicine better work or im gonna stop buying it.

And It is like WAY too hot out to use a heating pad... grrrrr... owwweeeeee..... i think im dying..

My plans for today go as follows:

School

Library

Home

Track meet

Home

Nice aint it? This morning I woke up and saw I was online, so I went right to Myspace... I met a guy last night from Brazil... hes super nice.. lol.. hes an exchange student in Nebraska? uhhhh... somewhere around there, prolly isnt Nebraska but u know, i dont care.. lol..

I really cant wait to move to Rochester. My mom pissed me off so bad last night and this morning. She was yelling at me for absolutly no reason.. she must be going through Menopause cause there is absolutly NO excuse for  her to be yelling at me the way she was. She seems to think that I am doing something wrong every second of the day and I am getting sick of it.

My sister is coming down for my brothers track meet today, shes bringing the truck so she wanted me to get some stuff together for her to take back to the house. So I decided I could take down a bookcase and get a few books together and my stuffed animals. So shes taking them back tonight... my room looks emptier and emptier every time she visits... Im really starting to take in all the seriousness of moving again.  I know I can do it, just I dont like to re-adjust to places... and going from a small teeny little town to a HUGE neighborhood... thats a GIGANTIC step for me. Like where I live now, houses are about a quarter of a mile apart, where im moving to--- houses are only ten feet apart. ok so i over exadurated a little, their like 8 feet apart...

ugh... i need a life... It's only 3rd period and I have already began to watch Walking Tall, done my science homework, been online twice.... I am still bored and junk... got really nothing to do... I cant get anywhere online here at school. stupid bess.

Has anyone seen the Jesus video with him singing "I will Survive"? It is wrong but it is funny... I believe in God n stuff, but I cant help laughing at the video... if you havent seen it and need a good laugh, check this out.

Well thats all i've got... oh yeah... www.digitalfog.com/gallery has funny videos to check out.. saw these aisan guys acting cool while singing along to Backstreet boys music... hahahaha....

iight, later bloggers.

Today was a lazy day for me. I didn't do much, didn't go to school... but you know what I did realize on my long day at home??

I GRADUATE IN ABOUT ONE MONTH! Fuck yeah! lol.

*sighs* I sometimes can't wait to move to Rochester... I have my reasons to go, but I also feel like I don't want to go... all my friends are only a town away, the people I have grown to love, respect, ect... their all here in Nunda/Mt.Morris. Some of my happiest memories were here... why would I want to leave them? Then again, there isnt really anything here for me after I graduate. I need to start a life for myself. Time to get out into the real world and grow up. Moving to Rochester will make things better for me and I know it. I will be away from the stress that living with my parents brings on me, I can find work, I can get to know new people...

I wish life wasnt so hard.

I guess that's all I really had to complain/talk about today...

Later Bloggers.

I broke up with Andrew today, I had help last night realizing that im not over what happened with Chris... and I cant have a relationship with anyone if Im not over the last one. I explained it all to Andrew, I emailed it to him and i really hope he doesnt get pissed at me because thats the last thing that I want to happen. I love talking to him, I hope that he wants to stay friends.

I feel like such a jerk....... grrrrrrrrrr.....................................

The Lunch Poem

The halves of the bread, thrown onto a tray.

A meat-like substance inserted in between.

I had to convince myself that it would taste ok

But the lunchlady's glare looked pretty mean.

As I get my piece of cake, 

I grab my spoon and fork.

Man! That frosting sure looks fake.

A kid behind me popped a cork. (crazy)

And the bell just rang,

I have to go to my class.

Goodbye to everythang.

-The End-

LMFAO!

This weekend was so long, It was fun but really long. Friday I got home from school and got my things together, 4pm Eric picked me up and we went to the Skate Park to wait for Dan so we could finish filming the Mission Man video. That seemed to take forever... like I didnt wanna ruin any of the shots they were taking from the balcony scene, so I decided I wanted to go outside to the Gazibo, my most favorite place in the world... I sat there and wrote in my notebook, only another poem.. I called it "My Serenity"... God I love sitting at the Gazibo.. its so relaxing. So after I was done writing, I go back to the church and they had just finished filming, so we hung out upstairs in the youth room... i threw in my new mix cd that I wanted to test out, just made it while i was at home getting ready... and I wanted to make sure that the songs didnt skip. Got to track 4, Shakira- Hips Dont lie and Dan walked into the room and was like "What kind of music is this?" and so i said, It's not the Christian music you listen to, it's Shakira... and he walked over to the cd player and turned it off.. He was all "This is a church, you cant play that in here." I didnt even have it turned up that loud! Gosh I wanted to smack him. Last year he was just fine about music and stuff, he was cool with listening to music... he was cool period. Now... hes fucking brainwashed or something, whatever happened to Dan, the lifechanging experiance he went through, i hate it... i dont like what Dan has turned into. He was one of my best friends last year and we kinda faded apart during the summer.. hes WAY too into that whole "Follow God and he will make everything in your life so much better" thing. He wont even watch "R" movies. Says that their not something God wants him to watch. Screw it... If I ever become that into God to where I change my whole fucking lifestyle for him, i dont want it, i wanna be shot. lol.

So we went to youth group at 7, hung out for about an hour or so... got to talk to Miki and Pattie... threw some pillows at Joshy... It was fun for the most part. We drove to Stacey's house, found it no problem... and we had a lot of fun. We moved some things outta my new room so that I could start moving in. I brought a small box of books, stuffed aminals, and magazines... im gonna move a bookshelf in over there and throw some things on it. It's going to be much better when I move in over there. I dont have a crappy internet connection, I can get a job and not have to worry if im not going to be able to make it to work or not that day, I can have friends around where I live and see them most of the time, and best of all, im not getting yelled at all the time. My parents insist on yelling at me about EVERYTHING... it pisses me off.. like everything is my fault, I cant do anything rite. *sighs* oh well, what do I expect, im not their favorite child. lol.

So sunday we were getting ready to go to the zoo, we were eating lunch and Eric went to the refirgerator to get some milk, poured it, took two gulps before realizing that it was sour... omg I felt soooo bad for him!!! He was like sick after that for a few hours... poor baby... We were all walking around the zoo and even though he said he was fine I could tell he didnt feel well... he passed out in the car on the way  home, scared the shit out of me!!! Cuz he had a tight grip on my hand, and then all of a sudden his hand dropped... i was like OMG... I shook him a few times and he wasnt responding, i was calling his name... scared the shit out of me. I kept watching for signs of breathing... then he finally snapped outta it... I have NEVER been so worried for someone in my entire LIFE! I almost started crying... omg... he's fine now... sept when we got back to my house after he got some sleep and was feeling better, we drove to my house, went to take my stuff inside and came back out.. his van had overheated, it was leaking anti-freeze, and there was some stuff in a container in his engine boiling, like on the left in a kinda somewhat clear containter... my dad poured something in it, i think it was water... said that would help a little. But apparenly the fan died in his car and wasnt cooling down the engine, sooo Eric had to find a ride home last night. :o(

So that was my weekend... Later Bloggers!

My Serenity 4/28/06

A gentle breeze,

a shady place,

cool spring air,

the sound of life.

All of these make My Serenity.

On the right is where the skaters skate,

On the left is a quiet place.

Where I sit is neutral and calm.

Not bothered by anyone,

just alone.

It is here where I can sit and think.

In peace, in private and in happiness.

My Serenity, here as I am,

doesnt reject me.

My Serenity doesn't care what I've done,

or about any flaws in me.

It accepts me as I am,

It accepts me for me.

It's My Serenity.

I really dont wanna be here in Web Publishing, I hate this class. I should have skipped today. Its so boring and dark in here. I have a headache and im getting very irritable because these damn music videos wont play!

I get to go outside next period and catch some air at least. Orienteering isnt very fun but it gets me outside.

So far this whole period I've heard this girl in my class complain... the WHOLE TIME! Gosh she is such a wine ass! I wanna smack her... grrrrrr.... im going f***ing crazy right now, I gotta get outta here.

 I AM SOOO MISERABLE RIGHT NOW!!!!!

I miss my Andrew... I need to talk to him... :(

Later Bloggers...

Happy Arbor Day everyone! Not sure if i spelled it right but oh well... GO PLANT A TREE!!!

Today is going to be one busy day for me... wow. After school I am getting home, running upstairs and grabbing my overnight bag and a box of junk im taking to my new room at my sister's house in Rochester. With that stuff im running down to my friend's van that will be waiting for me, then we will proceed to go to Dansville to film for a few hours, from there i go to youth group till like 9pm. After youth group my friend and I are taking off to go to Rochester to my sister's house for  the night. Loooonnnnnggggg day full of driving.

I didnt get enough sleep last night, grrr... but I woke up in a REALLY good mood. That almost never happens. I think it's because I knew that I had radio today. :D I luv Radio!!! Maybe I should be a person who works at a radio station?? ;o) I'd be good at that!

This guy that i've been dating online, he is such a cutie! I cant wait till me and my sis go down there to see him in person, I refuse to go alone because of the danger of it all, but I wanna go.. It'll be interesting to do. Plus I can do some sight seeing...

Gotta get going... Later Bloggers!