Here I am... sitting in the library again skipping my web publishing class... I have no idea why i keep coming here, im using the computer in both rooms... i could just be sitting upstairs on the 3rd floor in a dark room doing other than my work. lol. Oh well...

For some reason I just feel so angry.. Mostly because Chris broke up with me on thursday telling me that he was really depressed being down in GA alone and because he didnt want me to be with him while he was in the financial situation he was in. But for some reason, im not THAT angry about that, im more angry that he told me that he loved me and was going to marry me (promised) and then didnt have the balls to tell me that he was lying, that he wanted to go back out with his ex Katy. I keep telling myself all the time that hes not worth getting upset and angry over. and it's true! But Im still just mad. I want to forgive him and move on, but I cant right now. And I really want to have a relationship with Dan... I know that I need to wait for a little bit, but I cant see myself staying mad for more than 2 weeks. Ugh... I dunno... 

Eew... parsley buttered potatoes and chicken nuggets... School lunches suck. Like we have these little 1 1/2 inch chicken nuggets, we are only allowed 5 with a "normal" school lunch.. not that I eat them all anyway..its disgusting. Im thinking about just ditching school lunch all together.. and breakfast. Their gross.

I have no idea why I even came to school today... I feel like garbage. Hmm.... let me think... mom made me come today... I needed to get some info on Prom.... OMG Prom! I can't believe that its being held like 3 towns away! My mom is going to be sooo pissed! Why cant they just have it in our town... its not like we're going to be doing much but dancing and having a good time. Its stupid. Grrrrr... Well... I guess if mom flips out then she flips out.. nothing i can do about it. Well... must get to class. Sayonara Bloggers!

Ugh... i am sooo tired. I stayed up last night to watch The Perfect Man, I love that movie. It's so cute! I didnt get to sleep until close to midnight.... had to get up at 6 this morning to get ready... didnt eat breakfast again, got some super bad cramps, dont feel well, gotta headache, and lastly need to find out about Prom Tickets. Im gonna ask my friend Dan... I hope he says yes. I dont see why he wouldnt. I asked him last year at my junior prom and he said he'd go with me, but then things changed and i brought Nate. I feel kinda bad about that, so I really wanna go with Dan this year. Besides, he might look good in a tux ;)

Graduation is coming so fast. I look forward to it, but then again it means that I have to take in more responsibility. I dont know if im ready for that yet. I'd be moving out to a new town, getting a job, having to pay bills... It doesnt sound bad, but when I think about it, It sounds like im getting way in over my head. As much as I want to move outta my parents house, I dont want to leave until I know I can make it on my own. But my problem is that I think im gonna have to move, I need to get a job down there in Dansville or I wont be moving at all. Dville has more to offer job-wise than Nunda. I have got some friends down there that I know I can shack up with if I really need to... but I dont want to have to do that.

Maybe I should really do some looking down there before I get in over my head... Well... got things to do, people to write. Till next time, see yah later.

Eeeeh.... well I failed the CPR test today, everyone did. We have 2 weeks to learn it soooo im not in a HUGE hurry... It was somewhat embarassing though.. i wasnt even 10 seconds into the test and my teacher was like, Donna stop, you've already failed. lol. Better luck thursday! lol.

I am sitting here in the library at school, kids surrounding me. I am supposed to be in my Web Publishing class but it's too boring to be there. I have to go to gym next... We are learning CPR. Its kinda required to graduate. So hopefully I finish learning it today, take the test on thursday and go back to Pickle ball on monday. I am so bored. Today I managed to actually eat a whole lunch. Big accomplishment since I really havent eaten much since thursday when Chris broke up with me. I think today I ate more than I've eaten SINCE thursday. I had a peanutbutter and fluff sandwich and a little bit of chips. No breakfast (as usual since thurs.) and no dinner last night(again like usual since thurs.) My mom almost made me stay at home today because she wanted me to eat breakfast before I came to school... but i told her i would get it when I got there... which I did... just threw it away, wasnt hungry. Everyone's worried about me, but they need to stop. Im gonna be fine. I dont know why they dont understand that... i mean, this is just how I deal with things like breakups. I dunno... grrrr.... just for a day I'd like things to just stop being so hectic.

Well the bell is about to ring... thus ending my first post. -The End-